unable to communicate

Today im picking up,but for around a week ive found it  almost impossible to communicate,pretty much devoured by this illness,its frightening the ferocity of it,like i dissapear into a world of pain and no one can help me.I got out walking today and that has helped,im going to try and keep it up eachday,going to be working at the pizza shop full time so i think that helps when im out and about,i have to keep trying