Ultrasound update!
Everything looked great! We saw little arms and little legs. And he or she was wiggling all around. The heart rate was 164. I was a little concerned about that because it seemed low. But she keep saying it was great and everything looked great. I will never stop worrying though. My husband was like "don't you feel better after seeing the baby on the ultrasound and everything looked great" And for some reason I just can't relax about the pregnancy. I'm expecting the worse at any moment. I really hate feeling this way because I know it can't be good for me. On another note: I told my mom this afternoon. I haven't really talked about her, but here's a brief summary about how she is. She is the type of person that thinks if you don't have plenty of money then you have no business having kids. And with my first husband we had money problems but we weren't on food stamps, well fare, ect. We always had food on the table. That being said, she was never happy when I told her I was pregnant with my 4 children. Well, long story short... She was not very happy today either. And it was very upsetting to me because I really wanted her to be happy. I knew it wasn't going to happen but I was really hopeing. I have always been a disappointment to my mother and I'm sure this has just reconfirmed that in her mind. I hope everyone is doing well!
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