ugh. worried.

worried that she is going to forget about me. im praying so hard that one day she will want to be a regular friend that doesn't have as many boundaries as her and i have that she likes to have on our friendship. its just hard cuz if i bring any of this up to her she will get mad at me cuz thats what happened before when i brought it up to her.  but she tells me every so often that she really really loves me but why do you want to have so many boundaries like i mean alot if she loves me this much?????  im confused.