Ugh! He\'s such a jerk!

Found out yesterday that Spanky is a total liar and he's getting worse! Aunt Vicky told Brenda that Spanky was at my house swimming 2 weekends ago and Brenda blew a gasket.  She had just been praising the relationship between Spanky and Rayna and said that he would never cheat on her sine they are perfect together.  Vicky got sick of hearing it and told her.  Then Brenda asked him and he denied the entire thing.  No wonder why they think that i'm crazy! Well, they can have their perfect lie together.  He will end up leaving her just like he leaves everyone else.  Larry told me that we will be together when the time is right and both of us are at the right place in our lives.  I just hope that if it is true, it comes soon so we can spend time together while we are still younger and the kids are younger and we can do more.  I shouldn't want him back.  Right now I don't. I know if he comes back later and can be honest about his feelings for me and a life together, i'd probably take him back.  I just don't don't want a washed up, used up shell though.  I want a Spanky that can be honest, wants to have a positive, loving relationship and loves me for me.  Can he fit the bill?  When will he overlook what just happened and contact me again?  I can't answer him but at least I know that I'm on his mind.   i just know that dating is the last thing on my mind.  I just don't want to date anymore.  The last few guys have been tools and i'm so over it! There is no where to go to meet them around here anyway.  I shouldn't worry about it.  Got alot to do this summer and fix me.  I come first from now on.