Two Years later.
It has been 2 years and 5 months since my Michaela was born into heaven and I think I am now at the point where I have accepted her loss. However I have realized that though I lost her from being here on Earth with me, I didn't lose her. She is always with me, I think of her and imagine her every hour of every day, I talk to her and smile when I think of name and how happy she must be in Heaven playing with other angels and keeping my dad company. I used to think that she was alone and scared and that she probably wished she could be here with me, her mommy, but most of the time now I don't think that anymore. I think my dad is taking good care of her for me and that she know that we will meet again at the time God choses.
I love her so much and for whatever reason that I don't understand she is not here but my love and longing for her will never end.
Love you my sweet baby girl, you have my eternal love.
I love her so much and for whatever reason that I don't understand she is not here but my love and longing for her will never end.
Love you my sweet baby girl, you have my eternal love.
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Hey Amanda!!! So good to see you journal entry! I totally agree... I don\'t ever think of Jayne as dead (although I still say it coz to the world she is) I think of her adopted into God\'s heaven family, alive and well, just growing up someplace else. I know that one day we will be reunited in glory and it will be the happiest day!! All of our angels are living well, with no sorrow, no pain.... don\'t think they even miss us, coz they are with us and time to them is not so slow!!
Awe, I agree with both of you. I try not to refer to my son as dead either, I try to say (passed on) Because I believe he passed on to the other side and is with all of our loved ones. I believe our loved ones are always with us as well. :)
I think and feel the exact same way as both of you! Sometimes I am actually happy that my precious baby girl will never feel pain, never cry, never suffer. She and all the precious little angels are in the best place anyone could be. I actually have something to look forward to when God calls me home, holding my Michaela once again.
I think and feel the exact same way as both of you! Sometimes I am actually happy that my precious baby girl will never feel pain, never cry, never suffer. She and all the precious little angels are in the best place anyone could be. I actually have something to look forward to when God calls me home, holding my Michaela once again.
Beautifully said, and I couldn\'t agree more. As strange as this may sound, I\'m no longer afraid of the idea of \"ghosts\" or \"spirits\" as I used to be. After Luke\'s stillbirth, I\'ve embraced the concept of spirits, ghosts, or anything that may represent those living on the other side. In fact, I hope that I get to encounter a spirit here on Earth in case it has a message for me from Luke, if it\'s not Luke himself. Meanwhile, I know his spirit is with me always, and I\'ll see him again.