two weeks today since I lost my Max
For me today isnt, Sunday its not febuary 6th, Its not the first day in awhile that it finally stopped snowing, its not 9 days untill my birthday. For me today is two weeks since I held my sweet, wonderful, perfect angel for the first and last time. For me today is two weeks since my son went to heaven to become an angel. For me to today is two weeks since my beautiful baby was takin away from me. For me today is two weeks worth of knowing I will never have my son here with me. for me today is two weeks worth of pain and tears and sadness and emptyness and lonliness and hurt and guilt and sorrow and hate and anger and frustration and not understanding and questions of why my son. For me today is two weeks worth of knowing I will only be able to see my son again thru his picture.I miss Max more and more and more and more everyday. All I want is my baby back. I havent asked for alot in my life. I asked for him and for a breif moment I thought he would be mine forever. I guess Im not allowed to be happy. That seems like the story of my life. For me today marks the two worst weeks of my entire life!
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I am so sorry, It has been almost 8 weeks for me. I feel the same exact way, all I ever wanted in this life is children. I feel like someone/thing was teasing me with him and took him away the day before he was due. I hope you feel better. Hugs, Pamela
I am so sorry that you have to go through this horrific journey. I am at 10 weeks today that I found out my sweet Andrew was not with me anymore. Every second of every day I miss him like crazy and I love him more and more. He has taught me so many things and I am so grateful for him coming into my life and being my son, my leader and my angel forever! As time continues to move forward you will see different things, feel different things and continue to love Max unconditionally and know he is with you. He is your\'s forever and ever and he is going to protect you and show you many things!!! My thoughts and prayers are with you and if you need anything message me. BIG (((HUGS))), Andrea
I know where you\'re coming from. I counted my life in weeks for almost 5 months after Victoria passed. As far as I was concerned (and you too) that was the only real point of reference to even begin counting from. I hope you find more and more moments of peace with each passing week. xoxo
On Friday, it will be 8 weeks. I just can\'t believe it. I feel like time moves so slowly, yet I can\'t believe I made it 8 weeks! All of your feelings are completely normal. I\'m sorry that you have to go thru this. Hugs.