two weeks today since I lost my Max

For me today isnt, Sunday its not febuary 6th, Its not the first day in awhile that it finally stopped snowing, its not 9 days untill my birthday. For me today is two weeks since I held my sweet, wonderful, perfect angel for the first and last time. For me today is two weeks since my son went to heaven to become an angel. For me to today is two weeks since my beautiful baby was takin away from me. For me today is two weeks worth of knowing I will never have my son here with me. for me today is two weeks worth of pain and tears and sadness and emptyness and lonliness and hurt and guilt and sorrow and hate and anger and frustration and not understanding and questions of why my son. For me today is two weeks worth of knowing I will only be able to see my son again thru his picture.I miss Max more and more and more and more everyday. All I want is my baby back. I havent asked for alot in my life. I asked for him and for a breif moment I thought he would be mine forever. I guess Im not allowed to be happy. That seems like the story of my life. For me today marks the two worst weeks of my entire life!