two week flare from hades

his is g the flare from hades. my toes are drawing, i cant lift my legs more than a few inches without feeling like someone stabbed me in my torso and im on week two of back spasms. i finally had to get a cane and decided to call him my new friend Cletus. oh, and did i mention my big toe is tingling to the arch of my foot, and my toes are drawing in? 
my primary is furious with my nero and s giving me a referal to the neuro of my choice. im ot supposed to go back till august and im getting the brush off. he wants to send me for a neuro psych eval and my primary said he did the mri wrong and she thinks its in my spine. 
im getting more help from her than my neuro. she took me off the flexeril and put me on sklaxton to help manage the pain.
its being a roller coasterter ride. im glad i have such a strong support group with my family and my church family. it makes me happy i have people who care, and love me. while it sucks and i hate this monster i still ve a lot to be grateful for. family, friends, job and most importantly i have a or o loves me enough to die for. i asked myself for a long time why me? when i finally decided to start asking why not me. better me than someone who doesnt a support group. better me than someone who doesnt have family. better me with no kids (except our furry four leggers) than someone who has children. someone asked me how it was fair. whose definition of fair are they using? 
i dont like this ride but its ok. its going to be ok. im not afraid.