two months today :(
Today marks two months since my lil monkey went to heaven. I just cant beleive its been that long already. Sometimes it stills feels like it was just yesterday I heard my doctor say those awful words "Im sorry but there is no heartbeat"So this may sound weird but I hate snow so much and on the day I heard those words it snowed. The day he was born it snowed. It snowed all week the first week after he went to heaven. It snowed on my first doc appoint after. It only snowed on sundays for the few weeks after. Max was born on a sunday. It didnt snow for awhile then snowed on the day of my next doc appoint. This past week it has been up in the 50's and nice out and today on his 2 month angelversary I woke up to find ..SNOW!! inches of it on the ground. I wonder if Max is telling me he likes snow?
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That\'s a good way to think of it! Maybe Max (I love his name by the way!) loves snow! Butterflies remind me of my Emily. She was born in Feb. and I live in WI, so I haven\'t seen, but every time I see one I think of her. It\'s amazing how many have \"popped\" up in the last 6 weeks! They make me smile!
I am thinking of you today!! Try and take it easy and maybe do something for yourself today! I think it is a way that Max is communicating with you, with the snow. (((HUGS))) Andrea
I am so sorry you are feeling bad right now. Our babies became Angels on the same day so I tend to count every Sunday since. We all have things that remind us of our little Angels. For me, it\'s certain foods Imani loved, butterflies (they were her theme) and the colors pink & purple. Maybe in time the things that remind us of our babies will make us smile instead of cry. We were given gifts, the most wonderful ones of all, and even though they are not here physically, they are still with us. I try to think of the happier times when Imani moved within me, and even though I wanted so much more, I feel so fortunate to even have had that time with her. I\'m sure little Max is looking over you and wants you to smile when you think of him. If he loves snow, it may be his way of reminding you that he\'s with you and he loves you.
Thinking of you today. It hasn\'t snowed in so long and it\'s springtime, so Max is probably send you a message. Hugs, Pamela
Thinking of you today.2 months was hard for me, I think its when reality is truly setting in. I feel the same way about the snow. I think Kaylee.loves it and sends it to me! When I delivered her it snowed, then it snowed every day after that for 2 weeks straight, and then we had one of the biggest snow storm on record! Maybe Kaylee and max are playing in the snow together!
I hope you find some moments of peace today. Hugs, mandy
Wow! I love that Max loves the snow. I was expecting in Jan and so in my head I pictured it being a blizzard the day I would deliver. Little did I know that snow wasn\'t any where near coming when I would deliver in October. But, everytime we had a big snow storm I would think of my Victoria. I would think of how I imagined bringing her home in the snow, all bundled up to protect her. Maybe you will begin to like the snow after all.
I hope you are able to find some moments of peace today. I feel the same way as Mandy, that at the two month mark it really settled into my bones that she wasn\'t going to come back, that this is really my path. I began to accept it shortly after that. I hope you will have the same peace. It\'s such a shame that we are stuck in this heartbreak but I love that you are able to find moments of happiness while reflecting on your pregnancy. I am so thankful for the 27 weeks that I got to spend with Victoria. I feel like that was a gift.
Wishing you peace, love and happiness today and always! - Jodi
I think think your angel is sending you a sign! I hope today isn\'t too rough on you. I lost my baby only 2 weeks ago, so I don\'t have any advice for you, but if you need to talk, I\'m here.
Maybe he wants you to know he is with you :-)