Two months this weekend
It seems much longer than two calendar months since my daughter left. I've sort of got used to the house being empty. I don't expect her anymore. The weekends are still the loneliest time. During the week I busy myself with watching TV programmes, writing a story for Nanowrimo and doing a sketch a day. The time goes quickly.
Then the weekend comes and once I've done the usual chores, I feel at a loss. I just don't know what to do with myself.
I applied for a job in Melbourne. The closing date was last week. I haven't heard anything yet. I feel as if I'll never get out of this place. I feel stuck. What if I don't even get an interview. What if I do? What do I do? I don't know how to get from here to there without support, without someone to bounce ideas off or advice or suggestions. I"m so alone.
I seem to be getting out and about on Sundays. For the last two Sundays I've travelled to Wellington. Last Sunday was actually very enjoyable, spending it with friends. I had a good time. Tomorrow I'll head out on a garden tour with colleagues. That should be good. But the rest of the time, I just feel so alone. The house is so very quiet. Nothing changes unless I change it. Nothing moves unless I move it. Nothing gets done unless I do it. It's like the house has become dead - the empty shell.
I'd better do some chores...
Then the weekend comes and once I've done the usual chores, I feel at a loss. I just don't know what to do with myself.
I applied for a job in Melbourne. The closing date was last week. I haven't heard anything yet. I feel as if I'll never get out of this place. I feel stuck. What if I don't even get an interview. What if I do? What do I do? I don't know how to get from here to there without support, without someone to bounce ideas off or advice or suggestions. I"m so alone.
I seem to be getting out and about on Sundays. For the last two Sundays I've travelled to Wellington. Last Sunday was actually very enjoyable, spending it with friends. I had a good time. Tomorrow I'll head out on a garden tour with colleagues. That should be good. But the rest of the time, I just feel so alone. The house is so very quiet. Nothing changes unless I change it. Nothing moves unless I move it. Nothing gets done unless I do it. It's like the house has become dead - the empty shell.
I'd better do some chores...
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