Two months ago

My sweet little angel Nevaeh, how I miss you so.  You would be two months today.  It seems like just a week ago I had you sleeping.  I miss you soo much.  All I want to do is talk about you to everyone, but yet no one cares to listen.  No one wants to see your pictures or hear about how much I love you and miss you.  Life is so horrible without you, all I want is you here.  I want to kiss you, hold you, feed you, change your diapers, tell you how much I love you.  I want to see you play and grow with your big brother Gabriel.  You two are only a year and five days apart, you two would have been best friends.  Gabriel would have always protected you from all the bullies.  Mommy is trying so hard to be strong, but it just feels like a never ending emptiness, sadness, and I fell so alone.  I feel so far away from you.  I can't see you or come and visit your grave anymore.  I can't just come and stop by to say hello, or lay on your grave and cry because I miss you so much.  I had a really bad day today.   Your daddy's mom is always telling me what to do and she yelled at me today and then I went to work and my boss told me how much she doesn't like me.  Nothing seems to matter anymore, I don't care what Daddy's mom has to say or what mommy's boss has to say either.  I just want you here with me.  I love you soo much and miss you too my little angel Nevaeh.