Twas the day before Beta

so tomorrow is the big day, and of course my anxiety level is rising.  I am keeping myself busy, between work and dinner with friends.  thankfully, I am not in a true panic, but every time i think about "it" my heart rate increases and I sort of catch my breathe.
naturally, I am still having cramps and lower back pain.  so naturally, I don't feel too hopeful that the test will be positive.  but at least I'm not spotting and at least tomorrow I'll know - either way.
I keep telling myself that if it's negative, I will be ok.  of course I will be ok.  we are strong women and are fighters.  but I know I'll also probably have a breakdown and just have to be prepared for the tears and the devestation.  
Prayer for a positive test still happens every day.  every day I still play "you are my sunshine" on the way to work for my three little embryos, in hopes that at least one is there and listening.