Turned in gun...
I turned in my fire arm last nite to the city police headquarters. It was scary; when I got there I parked in the back and called dispatch. He said 'someone' would be out. Well 10 minutes later, they sent half-dozen officers; one with weapon drawn. They asked me to get out of vehicle and put my hands behind my head. I thought they were gonna hand-cuff me and drag me to a holding cell! I explained that I only wanted to turn in my fire-arm for my own/and my family's safety. They wanted me to come in and they asked lots of background questions: why did I purchase gun, what sparked the suicidal thoughts, etc. Then they called in a mental health expert who asked me the same questions and did a mental eval on me to see if I needed to be hospitalized. I convinced him that I am functional and that I am seeing a therapist, I go to a local support group for BiPolar/Depression, I have people's numbers that I can call if I am at a 'low-point', etc. Long story short they let me go home. It took about 1 1/2 hr; got there 8:45p and left at about 10:30p. Spouse/family didn't know where I was and no one knew about gun.
I am somewhat relieved the gun is out of the house; didn't want my 10yr old stumbling on it or anyone else. That would've been catastrophic! My mother-in-law just got here a week ago and will be here til Dec. - so it might've been more like armaggedon! I not sure if I'll get my gun back or the process it would take to get it back and I'm not gonna inquire right now. I still think it was my quick ticket outta here when/if things get worse, so I feel very vulnerable & exposed...
Everyone keeps saying that things will get better but I just can't see how; my faith is very weak and I'm still in this dark chamber of depression. If I lived on my own, I probably would've kept the gun...
I am somewhat relieved the gun is out of the house; didn't want my 10yr old stumbling on it or anyone else. That would've been catastrophic! My mother-in-law just got here a week ago and will be here til Dec. - so it might've been more like armaggedon! I not sure if I'll get my gun back or the process it would take to get it back and I'm not gonna inquire right now. I still think it was my quick ticket outta here when/if things get worse, so I feel very vulnerable & exposed...
Everyone keeps saying that things will get better but I just can't see how; my faith is very weak and I'm still in this dark chamber of depression. If I lived on my own, I probably would've kept the gun...
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