Tuesday-July 1st,2008

I am so sorry that I havent written but my computer has been acting funny.And when i cannot write or see my e mails I get worried.Things are getting to me a little better,but I am still paying off the bills and I have got so much to do today and I feel so alone.Noone really understands how I feel.I feel very much alone and this pain is on the increase.When you find out that someone never loved you..it is a big trauma for me.The nuns have never taught me to accept rejection and I must learn to do so.I have made a promise to myself and I have promised to make this the best summer ever and i will and will do so without Brad and I must.I do not love Brad anymore and I found out that I am better by being alone.That is the greatest gift that my sainted father gave me.He gave me what it is like to be alone and how a person can be alone and still be happy.I have got no desire to meet anyone else.Every one of these guys here are patheic.He does not know how to do his laundry.Why? Since when is a woman suppose to be responsble for a mans social life? I am sorry guys,I am not and there are things that I do that I absolutely refuse to give up for you because you do not like to do it.This is what all of the movie stars do when they meet someone.They give up all of their interest and friends for this guy and I say for what? No man is worth it and I refuse to do so.I do not need a baby in my life and half of the people that I met in seattle are.Please do things by and for yourself and do not expect me to do kaying,and such.I am not an outdoorsman person and at 60,I refuse to develop this interest and two-I do not have the money to do so.In fact,people who are always doing exercisg and such..turn me off.If you are training for the Olympics I can see it..but I am sorry there is no evidence that all of this exercise and vitamins will make you live longer.Also,I hate Republicans and also no grandparents.No children what so ever.And if you have got children,consider me gone.