Trying to stay positive
Paul called and is getting David's case reopened and hopefully getting him into this treatment facility. Scary thing is, that Dr Murch admitted last night that she is not helping David and he needs his case escalated. Top it off, it is my TOM started today and I am totally weepy and hormonal and now wracked with worry and just had a good bawl. Feel a little better.
Day 2 binge free yesterday! Ate 1465 calories and burned 1996 calories. did 1 hr of Wii Walk It Out. Got in 11,000 steps. Ate a late dinner around 7:30pm of steak, mashed potatoes, string beans. No bread! Did not eat anything after that. Today so far, so good.
The only thing worse than a fire is a large water loss, trust me. Got 2 new fires this week and today they gave me a large water loss. 3 big claims in 2 days! The water loss was a frozen pipe in the ceiling of the family room, huge high end home full of stuff. 1st fl and finished basement flooded including the wine room. Got my hands full with this one.
I can't take the phone ringing anymore with "when am I getting my check?" I am tired and need a break. I hate apologizing all of the time. I HAVE to work OT and get this caught up. I need a break somewhere- either here at home or at work or something.
I am keeping the green smiley face there. I am trying to count my blessings and remain positive. If I don't I will crumble.
Day 2 binge free yesterday! Ate 1465 calories and burned 1996 calories. did 1 hr of Wii Walk It Out. Got in 11,000 steps. Ate a late dinner around 7:30pm of steak, mashed potatoes, string beans. No bread! Did not eat anything after that. Today so far, so good.
The only thing worse than a fire is a large water loss, trust me. Got 2 new fires this week and today they gave me a large water loss. 3 big claims in 2 days! The water loss was a frozen pipe in the ceiling of the family room, huge high end home full of stuff. 1st fl and finished basement flooded including the wine room. Got my hands full with this one.
I can't take the phone ringing anymore with "when am I getting my check?" I am tired and need a break. I hate apologizing all of the time. I HAVE to work OT and get this caught up. I need a break somewhere- either here at home or at work or something.
I am keeping the green smiley face there. I am trying to count my blessings and remain positive. If I don't I will crumble.
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YIKES! Been keeping up with you as best as possible. I\'m not on line as much due to all of the medicine changes and all of the side effects they give me. I\'m so sorry about David and all of the issues. I wish there were a way that you could just shake the CW alive to the case or drop David on their doorstep for a week! OMG! What the heck does it take to get the child help and the help you deserve as well! You know you can call to vent if I\'m home. Sadly, I know you don\'t have much time to do that either. *sigh*. I\'m so so soooo sorry about that.
Yes, smiley faces are good. I should do the same. I\'m trying to hold myself together as well. Attitude is everything right..... hmmmm. Hang in there sweetie. I love you much. Know I think of you all of the time. ((Hugs))
Oh honey, if anyone understands, you know I do. You have GOT to figure out what you need to take care of yourself and make it a priority. When we juggle so many balls, on top of fighting for our children, it wears so hard on us and leaves us drained and empty. Figure out what you need and what you can control.
So proud of you for working out! That is such a great healthy release for you! :)
Love ya. Always a message away if you need anything!
Oh goodness, I cannot even imagine all that you go through. Thanks for coming on here and keeping us up to date. You worry for David and for those people facing losses and we worry for you!
Good job with the food and the exercise. Att\'ll teach em.
How many times does a kid have to say \"I want to die\" before someone takes him seriously? Do I think David wants to die or to kill himself? NO! But do I think that David makes extremely unsafe and stupid decisions out of anger, out of not thinking, out of pain, out of whatever it takes to get attention? YES! Does that worry me he will do something rash and stupid to hurt himself? YES! he refuses to face those bad feelings. When life is good, he talks up a storm, hugs me, etc. When he is angry or sad or whatever, he yells, hides, runs away. He shuts down and can\'t talk about what is bothering him. So the case is reopened and we await a phone call with what happens next. Praying it is soon.
The exercise truly is my escape. It really is the ONLY thing (besides my wonderful Kona) that is keeping me sane! I am afraid of the panic attacks, and if I let that fear get to me, they will take over my life again. I just can\'t let that happen. So I gotta keep focusing on positive and pray for the help I know will come.
I\'m so sorry about your situation. If I\'ve learned anything over the years of dealing with my adult son, it is to remember self-care and breathing.
I\'ll remember you in prayer.
Angela
So sorry that you are going through such a tough time at present. Exercise does wonders to help keep your mood up and gives you a place to escape to, so keep it up and hopefully it will help to see you through this tough time. Positive Mental Attitude is also a good thing to practice and like you my animals and exercise has got me through some rocky patches in the past.
Well done on 2 x binge days....I succombed to chocolate yesterday ! put on 1 lb today but know where I went wrong with it - keep up the good work - you can make it through.
Here is hoping they ring soon and arrange for him to go in for treatment.
I pray that this reopening of David\'s case gets him the treatment he needs to cope and learn to deal with his emotions.
Remember to breath.
Great on the no bingeing.
A good cry is like cleansing the heart.
Take a deep breath. You are stressing out and that\'s not good for anyone. I know it seems like people(specialists) don\'t take things seriously anymore. Good luck with the Place. Good to let out your feeling cryings is cleansing.
HUgs