Trying to stay Cool

So as most of your know we go for our first IUI this month. I should start Af next thursday or Friday then its kick off. I have neen so nervouse and excited and scared that i am drining myself crazy wit it all. I have been emailing me RE like a mad woman and havedecided to put a stop to that. I am just writing down everthing i want to ask her. And i will wil when i see her next. I feel deep down this is it. I am so so positive. I have heard that it can made a difference. Me and my HD were talking about how if we do IUi agian -- and I said STOP- we wont have to. I will get prego this time. I know I will. I have to. It will happen. I just keep thinking about how happy i will be this christmass and how I cant wait to tell everyone the good news. I am going to stop even thining about it all until next week. I will give my self a week break before AF and then we will see what happens.