TRYING TO MOVE FORWARD AFTER ONE YEAR

It has been one full year since my spouse and I separated.  I am doing a little better but at times I feel as if I am still dreaming that our separation as taken place after 22 yrs of marriage.  He left me April 17, 2010 as I was away for a church retreat and when I arrived there was a letter stating he was sick from Hepatitis C and was contagious.  I knew deep in my gut this was not true but never really imagined he was being unfaithful and much less with an ex girlfriend he left 22 yrs ago for infidelity.  (So he claimed)  Now I only wonder how true this was.  He has two children with her and they are grown.  He has stayed away from our two sons now 19 and 20 yrs olds but just recently contacted my older son after one year,  I would do anything in this world to have him pay for what he has done to our family.  How a man can just walk away from his marriage as if it never meant anything, no regard for our well being, our kids, he even left his job and church  He was a pastor for 16 yrs.  What a laugh.  He left everything to move to Florida with her.  I hope she is worth it.  Karma will eventualy catch up to him.  That is my only consolation right now.  I am seeing Someone new and taking it one day at a time. Just waiting for my divorce so I can move on and forward with my life as he left me here in NY married to him still.  Incredible but true.  I never knew this man after so many years.  Like sleeping with the enemy.

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Lstecker
Lstecker

Karma might catch up with him, but God surely will.

Count on it. I do....L~
Lstecker
Lstecker

Karma might catch up with him, but God surely will.

Count on it. I do....L~
rbsingle1959
rbsingle1959

Thanks I dont seem at times to know how to move forward. Sometime i have good days and other I am beside myself reliving the moment he just walked out so coldly on his family.
deleted_user
deleted_user

God and time heal us, though the wounds are deep. Though my story is very different, there is much to which I can relate...never really knowing the woman I was married to for a dozen years (now 13, 1st date 4/27/95). In one sense, I wonder how we could be so wrong for so long. Then I realize that we weren\'t...they changed...they fell. Not that I\'m anyone to cast stones, since I\'m a sinner too, but my perspective changed in time. It wasn\'t all a lie. I thought that for a while, and I\'m sure the thought has crossed your mind too. Don\'t believe this lie of the enemy.
loftyc
loftyc

Oh God whats with these men. I feel for you. i too just think this is a bad dream that i\'ll wake up and it will be over.
nohappy
nohappy

Feeling ya girl!! 29 yrs this July and same thing. He walked once and I took him back. Then I kicked him out yr later. No contact (which is great) but he also walked out on 2 sons. 24 & 26. Nothing at all for contact with them. Keeps throwing wrenches in divorce but determined to win here!! He\'s crap and always will b. hang tough!