TRYING TO MOVE FORWARD AFTER ONE YEAR

It has been one full year since my spouse and I separated.  I am doing a little better but at times I feel as if I am still dreaming that our separation as taken place after 22 yrs of marriage.  He left me April 17, 2010 as I was away for a church retreat and when I arrived there was a letter stating he was sick from Hepatitis C and was contagious.  I knew deep in my gut this was not true but never really imagined he was being unfaithful and much less with an ex girlfriend he left 22 yrs ago for infidelity.  (So he claimed)  Now I only wonder how true this was.  He has two children with her and they are grown.  He has stayed away from our two sons now 19 and 20 yrs olds but just recently contacted my older son after one year,  I would do anything in this world to have him pay for what he has done to our family.  How a man can just walk away from his marriage as if it never meant anything, no regard for our well being, our kids, he even left his job and church  He was a pastor for 16 yrs.  What a laugh.  He left everything to move to Florida with her.  I hope she is worth it.  Karma will eventualy catch up to him.  That is my only consolation right now.  I am seeing Someone new and taking it one day at a time. Just waiting for my divorce so I can move on and forward with my life as he left me here in NY married to him still.  Incredible but true.  I never knew this man after so many years.  Like sleeping with the enemy.