Trying to keep up

Let too much go for too long and trying desperately to make it all work now. I know I am on the verge of something again, which is change in it's self.
I cannot make it through a migraine with out using pain pills. Which is alright it's the after effect of stopping and the anxiety attacks at night that follows. So I have to wean off slowly which is a real pain to have to deal with because I like how I am when not on any drugs at all. Not having to worry about my state of mind crashing due to a chemical imbalance/dependency.
Feeling much better today no migraine took care of a few priorities today and now getting ready for work tomorrow.
Have an appointment with a neurologist on Thursday to address my head aches because I have been missing too much work.
I had to schedule medical leave thru insurance as not to get written up at work.
Lots of stress at work, Company releasing new services and other changes internaly as well. But also a lot of opportunity available because of the growth so I should be hopeful, and blessed. This I tell myself daily to survive the fear and doubt that is mostly not real.
Only by the Grace of God am I able to achieve anything in my life. He is my rock and my salvation. Only through my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ will I find any peace.
Completed a song 2 months ago called "Shadow Mountain," this is the name of the church I attend. The song still needs work but I like the first verse;
"I have learned to find love it must first be given,
  with all my heart and soul to my Father in heaven"
http://www.soundclick.com/mattlutack