trying to hang on

Trying to hang on we werent sure if he'd be home today but NOPE hes not they want him to do some more Physical Therapy now that his prosthetic leg is getting on better now....  Then he was having another issue sooo theyre going to do more tests.....  Am I grateful that hes there in the hospital??  Yes.....  Am I still upset he's there??  Yes and no.....  I mean Im glad that issues are arrising while hes there that are getting noticed vs if he was home & it wasnt getting taken care of...  Although this issue is easily noticeable but if it would have happened at home I know what things to do and if it didnt work out I would of insisted on taking him back to the hospital but I guess basically in a nutshell Im just being selfish....  I just want our lives to be back to normal.... Im a firm believer in prayer (not pushing this on anyone of you who may not be) but Im trying to do my best in praying on the whole situation and ask for patience & not to be selfish.....  So just wanted to update.....