Trying to focus on positives
Son does not want to see me on his birthday bad, but spending it with his girl who I like good. Just agreed to go on vacation with us as well and bring the girl. Will have them for 6 days, very good although do need more money for vacation now. Will be ok.
Middle son sick, but on his last week of school. 5 days and then he can be sick if he wants. Moving out soon too. Good and bad on that one.
Work almost over 9 more days. Thank goodness. Sure making a lot less this year, but so ready to be done. Hope we are busy this week and I bump up my paycheck.
Winter almost over. Can park on the street again. Yeah no more rotating cars to go places. Dreaming of gardening and my friend asked me to go to a gardening class with her. Will have to take a night off work, but should be fun.
Graduation announcements in the mail today. Wedding invites sitting on the desk waiting to be addressed, maybe tonight. Got the photographer, the place, and have a lead on a cake maker. Lots more to do, but steps forward.
Spent too much money on a new bedspread and accessories, won't pay off the car this month, but it sure is pretty. Got red, daring for me as I am always a neutral color.
Went to a movie with hb yesterday. Went ok. We don't spend much time alone anymore and really don't talk much. Alone time is very awkward. Especially since he tends to get a bit grabby. Soon the kids will be gone and don't know where we'll be. Movie was horrible, but sure gave us something to talk about on the way home.
So overall not going bad at the moment don't know why I feel like I am fighting off a panic attack. Sigh.
Middle son sick, but on his last week of school. 5 days and then he can be sick if he wants. Moving out soon too. Good and bad on that one.
Work almost over 9 more days. Thank goodness. Sure making a lot less this year, but so ready to be done. Hope we are busy this week and I bump up my paycheck.
Winter almost over. Can park on the street again. Yeah no more rotating cars to go places. Dreaming of gardening and my friend asked me to go to a gardening class with her. Will have to take a night off work, but should be fun.
Graduation announcements in the mail today. Wedding invites sitting on the desk waiting to be addressed, maybe tonight. Got the photographer, the place, and have a lead on a cake maker. Lots more to do, but steps forward.
Spent too much money on a new bedspread and accessories, won't pay off the car this month, but it sure is pretty. Got red, daring for me as I am always a neutral color.
Went to a movie with hb yesterday. Went ok. We don't spend much time alone anymore and really don't talk much. Alone time is very awkward. Especially since he tends to get a bit grabby. Soon the kids will be gone and don't know where we'll be. Movie was horrible, but sure gave us something to talk about on the way home.
So overall not going bad at the moment don't know why I feel like I am fighting off a panic attack. Sigh.
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Ugh i hate the panic too.I think it might be coming because of the changes in the near future.Change does that to me .Even positive changes.Sounds like things are going good.i\'m sorry about your son not able to see you on your birthday though.Glad he has a girlfriend that you like though.school lets out much earlier where you are.My son doesnt graduate from high school til the end of June here.I\'m starting to get alot of emotions about it all.Youll get thru it all.:) head up and positive thoughts about yourself(if you can,its hard)...caring thoughts for you..:)
I meant his birthday..sorry..