Trying to be positive

I have been really irritated lately while trying to stay sober. Now that I'm sober I am having to face my problems. I can't ignore them, or else I will always be miserable. It is not easy to have to deal with about $10,000 worth of problems that need fixing asap. That's probably part of how I started drinking a lot years ago. I was escaping reality. Sometimes I think I sure could use a drink, but I already know what will happen iF I do that. And I have to move when my lease ends in 3 months and hope I can get approved. Living in this highly priced shithole is just not an option. They are robbing me every month especially with the water/sewage mysteriously being over $120 per month with no rational explanation. This is not even a house! So annoyed. I would rather move back to cold ass Ohio where rent is at least cheaper and have my family than lease this place again. My goal is to fix at least half of my problems by the end of March. I know that's not a long time and I blessed that I can work, pay bills, buy food, and still save some money on my own. I am sure I could have fixed all this years ago if I had not been drinking. That's probably why I am mad. I caused all these problems.