Trying time right now

Well, I am on disability and it could end on Tuesday. I am being evaluated on Monday to see if I need to still have intensive outpatient group therapy. I do hope I can have a few more weeks since I feel that the group is helping me with what I am going through and I want to think that what I say to support them as well helps the people in the group. 

My boss sent me a termination letter today, so I guess I am fired. He said that I cost the company money by not figuring out the insurance on vehicles bought through financing. I believe I was supposed to let those companies know that we have insurance on those vehicles and since I didn't, they were charged for insurance through the financer. They also didn't believe the mobile hours I worked from home. They said that I bought stuff for personal gain as well. 

I don't know if an employer can fire someone while on disability. I will also lose my Kaiser and have to pay the Cobra amount. I don't know if they can discontinue my insurance either while on disability. I will have to talk to my case worker and find out. 

This makes my already anxiety so much worse. I haven't received any money from disability as of yet. I filed my claim on the 6th of December and it's now the 23rd, so I don't know what the hold up is. I have tried calling, but the recording always says they have reached the limit for callers and to try again. It says the same thing every time I call. My therapist suggested that I go to the disability office myself. I didn't think of that, so I will try to head down to the city soon and see what information I can get from them. I believe I will get a card that they will put the money on, so I need that as well. They should send me a new one since it's been eight or so years since I have been on unemployment. Unemployment uses the same card. I don't have that card anymore since it's been that long. I am praying that I get some money soon because I have bills to pay and it's really stressing me out.

Not having a job is stressing me out as well. I will have to start looking here really soon. I won't find a job that pays as well as the one I did have. I had been there seven years and they are considered familly since my boss was married to my sister for a time. I will have to suck it up and look and try to get over this anxiety and depression somehow.

Hopefully I can stay in the group therapy and get the help I need for a few more weeks and that my money comes in soon so I don't have to worry about that right at the moment. Thank you for listening.