Trying
Pat,
Well sweetie,I am trying to do what I hope you would think is best for the family. I am trying very hard to get the trailer paid for (4600 to go)and I have to find the 2800 to get it moved and I am giving 165 to the man at the park to tie up the nice lot he has for it.
I also am on the hunt for a job which is a on going battle for someone with no job experience hardly at all,and this economy where there are hardly any jobs and gas prices on the rise again. But I do keep trying,of course most applications have to be put in online and that makes thing's worse.
I am trying so hard to make thing's as good as I can for the kids and me,there was a time that I would have never even thought I could be happy in a singlewide trailer,but thing's change and I have to change with them.
Thing's I have to accept:
1. God is in charge,not me,only him and I have to trust him and put him first.
2. You,my sweetheart,are gone and are not coming back,but you are in heaven,happy,and waiting on me to join you one day.
3. I am a single parent,as much as I hate it,I alway's thought we would be parent's together and raise the kids together,atleast they are older,Trey is going to be 23 even though he acts like he is a 2year old alot,he is autistic ,so I have to be patient.
4.I have to accept the fact that you are not physically here for our daughter's 16th birthday and when she marries you are not able to walk her down the isle.
5.I have to be the parent and make the decisions
6.That you will not hold me or me you till I get to heaven,I can not kiss you or you me,no trips together to the mountains or to vegas again,no more special places to eat,
7.However,I do accept all this the best I can,I cry when I need to,talk to you when I need to,ask for help when I need to, I am trying to make you proud of me and trying to do the best I can with God's help and your's.
Please know sweetheart that I will alway's love you and miss you and will be with you one day and then there will be no death to ever seperate us again. Love ME
Well sweetie,I am trying to do what I hope you would think is best for the family. I am trying very hard to get the trailer paid for (4600 to go)and I have to find the 2800 to get it moved and I am giving 165 to the man at the park to tie up the nice lot he has for it.
I also am on the hunt for a job which is a on going battle for someone with no job experience hardly at all,and this economy where there are hardly any jobs and gas prices on the rise again. But I do keep trying,of course most applications have to be put in online and that makes thing's worse.
I am trying so hard to make thing's as good as I can for the kids and me,there was a time that I would have never even thought I could be happy in a singlewide trailer,but thing's change and I have to change with them.
Thing's I have to accept:
1. God is in charge,not me,only him and I have to trust him and put him first.
2. You,my sweetheart,are gone and are not coming back,but you are in heaven,happy,and waiting on me to join you one day.
3. I am a single parent,as much as I hate it,I alway's thought we would be parent's together and raise the kids together,atleast they are older,Trey is going to be 23 even though he acts like he is a 2year old alot,he is autistic ,so I have to be patient.
4.I have to accept the fact that you are not physically here for our daughter's 16th birthday and when she marries you are not able to walk her down the isle.
5.I have to be the parent and make the decisions
6.That you will not hold me or me you till I get to heaven,I can not kiss you or you me,no trips together to the mountains or to vegas again,no more special places to eat,
7.However,I do accept all this the best I can,I cry when I need to,talk to you when I need to,ask for help when I need to, I am trying to make you proud of me and trying to do the best I can with God's help and your's.
Please know sweetheart that I will alway's love you and miss you and will be with you one day and then there will be no death to ever seperate us again. Love ME
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My dear friend, I do like how you listed your concerns and also listed them in such a positive way.
You are not alone, you have prayer Warriors and we will keep praying for you. I ask all who reads your journal to join me in prayer for you.
Dear Lord,
We praise Your Holy name. We ask that You Please send Your mighty angels to over come this worlds battle for our friend here. She desperately needs help in finance, job, grief and sadness, family health, home, family strength and joy.
We ask this Jesus name.
Amen
Your friend,
Judy
..and i have prayed for you too Dear One.