trying

was told by therapist same thing i know and you all have been telling me for months. move it on. but it hurts. she is so far in its hard to get her out. but atleast ive agreed to try not to contact her cause cant handle it when i do. it so hard when you have noone. atleast she was something. it is my fault i have noone but just at point in my life i want someone. and i want it to be a good someone that is kind and caring and makes me laugh cause nothing else gives me pleasure right now except my children. trying to get out with friends this weekend and go see family on sunday. work not going well. emotions are running high. one worker transferring and her love right behind her. i tried to be friends with these people and that was my error. i am their boss and cant be anything more. its so hard for me not to let emotions play a part of everything in my world. trying not push new friend away. told her just be honest and tell me what your game is are you dating more than me what do you want. still waiting for an answer. is this too much to expect after couple dates? i dont know