truths
Here is my..... epiphany of the day
Its not the relationship or the person in it that is making me miserable and uneasy.
It is not her , what she does, what she doesnt do, what she thinks or dont think.
Its not what she feels that is right and ok, its not her lack of consideration or lack of interest.
It is my insecurities, my lack of self worth, my mistaken core beliefs about myself.
My jealousy, my distorted safety mechanisms. My need of validity.
These are the things that are making me unhappy.
These are very uncomfortable truths, but are truths nonetheles.
Being in this relationship has shown the faces of what uneases me.
This i am grateful for. This i feel is a gift.
This is all part of my recovery process. I am not where i was. I also am not where i want to be.
We are on our way.....theres alot more to work on.
This is not backsliding......this is progress.
Its not the relationship or the person in it that is making me miserable and uneasy.
It is not her , what she does, what she doesnt do, what she thinks or dont think.
Its not what she feels that is right and ok, its not her lack of consideration or lack of interest.
It is my insecurities, my lack of self worth, my mistaken core beliefs about myself.
My jealousy, my distorted safety mechanisms. My need of validity.
These are the things that are making me unhappy.
These are very uncomfortable truths, but are truths nonetheles.
Being in this relationship has shown the faces of what uneases me.
This i am grateful for. This i feel is a gift.
This is all part of my recovery process. I am not where i was. I also am not where i want to be.
We are on our way.....theres alot more to work on.
This is not backsliding......this is progress.
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Great progress, Kook!
Oh we\'ve got the poet in you amped up to an 11 don\'t we! Really well phrased. And yep, that all seems like progress to me for what it\'s worth.
Seeing yourself in someone elses eyes maybe? Yes. It sounds like progress. Just be kind to each other. That\'s all anybody really wants. Love and kindness. Then everything else can work itself out.
Try not to waste too much time digging into the past.