Truthfully

It is time for a truthful confession.  Sometimes I do things that I know will hurt my RA, just to feel normal for a little while.  Like today, I've planned a day out with a good friend for over a week.  We are going shopping to one place, lunch and a movie.  Now I know without my nap, I will feel like heck all evening and probably well into tomorrow.  I also know I will eat too much and drink too much caffine.  And you know what?  I'm still going to do it.  Because mentally, I need to feel normal for just a while.  So I'm off to have fun, even if I know it won't be fun tomorrow.