Truth

I woke up like normal 4a. I watched original law n order! I watched porn. I listened in on a chatline. This routine in the moment feels soothing but after release I feel stressed/ashamed b/c I wasted time to do things needed n positive. I've waisted a few hours. I've been smoking herb too lately by myself. I didn't meet anyone b/c im afraid to. I play out my fantasies in my head while watching and listening to porn.

Then I go to work.

My hobby is teaching n practicing yoga. So I believe I can beat this bad behavior. If I only try. It's a matter of reasoning with my thoughts n mind. I pray.