Trust/Love God?

Yes, you can love God & not trust God.  I am in the same place.  I trust God to the extent that I know God is a Power Larger than I, and is the Energy which runs the cosmos with a perfect order, with Laws of Nature that cannot be changed, that stay True through all time.  What I have come to realize is all of us human beings have a free will to create our own realities.  In this and in our ignorance, ( not stupidity, but ignorance,) we make some mistakes in our perception of the cosmos & the laws which run the show. We hurt each other, sometimes purposely in a moment of an uncontrolled emotional nature, sometimes unintentionally.  I believe we are here to learn spiritual lessons in a material world. I know that I understand but a very small piece of a very large lesson.  My experience has only just begun, because I have only just begun to wake up as a whole human being.  Meaning, I am just recently awakening to who I am as a spiritual human being.  I have believed the age old lie that I am separated from you and God and every other soul who is or ever was.  I know now I am accountable for what I think, feel, and do.  Everything I am effects every living piece of these cosmos.  If the truth is that I was created in the image of, no matter the religion, nor theological belief system, then I am going to effect it all with who and what I am.  The part of God that I don't trust is me in my ignorance.  Not the Great All which binds us all together as One.  I obviously don't have it all understood yet.  Maybe I never will.  Maybe it will be lifetimes before I, "Get It," maybe it will be when this lifetime is finished.  I do know the simple fact that I was created through an all powerful energy of Love.  It is all that is the real constant Truth throughout all time.  I am still struggling with the action of forgiving myself & others for not being perfect, for not knowing everything, for making mistakes in my perception of reality.  If I learn from my mistakes and forgive self & others, accept all for what it is without judgement then I will continue to find pieces of this Great Truth, & grow in wisdom.I don't know if any of this is making much sense, but it is where I've been lately.  I hope if I continue to find the pieces of this Truth  I will heal in all ways & return to the Great Reality whole, to take my place in it and continue to be pure in Spirit & Love. I enjoy the honesty and openness of everyone in this group.  I hope we keep communicating  in this way.  In love Light Truth & Service,'Stubborn' TerrieAnnralopYes, you can love God & not trust God.  I am in the same place.  I trust God to the extent that I know God is a Power Larger than I, and is the Energy which runs the cosmos with a perfect order, with Laws of Nature that cannot be changed, that stay True through all time.  What I have come to realize is all of us human beings have a free will to create our own realities.  In this and in our ignorance, ( not stupidity, but ignorance,) we make some mistakes in our perception of the cosmos & the laws which run the show. We hurt each other, sometimes purposely in a moment of an uncontrolled emotional nature, sometimes unintentionally.  I believe we are here to learn spiritual lessons in a material world. I know that I understand but a very small piece of a very large lesson.  My experience has only just begun, because I have only just begun to wake up as a whole human being.  Meaning, I am just recently awakening to who I am as a spiritual human being.  I have believed the age old lie that I am separated from you and God and every other soul who is or ever was.  I know now I am accountable for what I think, feel, and do.  Everything I am effects every living piece of these cosmos.  If the truth is that I was created in the image of, no matter the religion, nor theological belief system, then I am going to effect it all with who and what I am.  The part of God that I don't trust is me in my ignorance.  Not the Great All which binds us all together as One.  I obviously don't have it all understood yet.  Maybe I never will.  Maybe it will be lifetimes before I, "Get It," maybe it will be when this lifetime is finished.  I do know the simple fact that I was created through an all powerful energy of Love.  It is all that is the real constant Truth throughout all time.  I am still struggling with the action of forgiving myself & others for not being perfect, for not knowing everything, for making mistakes in my perception of reality.  If I learn from my mistakes and forgive self & others, accept all for what it is without judgement then I will continue to find pieces of this Great Truth, & grow in wisdom.I don't know if any of this is making much sense, but it is where I've been lately.  I hope if I continue to find the pieces of this Truth  I will heal in all ways & return to the Great Reality whole, to take my place in it and continue to be pure in Spirit & Love. I enjoy the honesty and openness of everyone in this group.  I hope we keep communicating  in this way.  In love Light Truth & Service,'Stubborn' TerrieAnnralop