Trudging This Road Of Grief

I miss my Amanda with every ounce of my being.  I recently was told that I possibly have breast cancer.  The waiting has been difficult as there has been one delay after another in working with my primary doctor and the breast cancer doctors.  My first thought was not about me but for my granddaughter Molly whom I am homeschooling.  I immediately began worrying what will happen if I cannot teach her.  My thoughts then went to my daughter Nicole who has Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia and how I would care for her when she needs my help and my son who is having a difficult time with the loss of his baby sister.  My dear husband whom I know would be devastated if he lost me. 
We have had so many difficult situations to deal with since Amanda's death and I feel overwhelmed but am trusting a God who loves me to carry us through these rough waters.