Troubled Heart

Stopped over to the house Thur. to stay with my son while the STBX is out of town for training. Funny I go from being Charlie Manson to an excellent babysitter in less that a month. I'm waiting in the truck as the no contact order states until she leaves before I get out. She is waiting outside her car for me to get out and I finally had to say YOU have to leave before I can get out of the truck. Petty I know but SHE brought this on not me. I get out and give the boy a hug walk into the house and it just smells like dog piss, she has all my stuff boxed up sitting in the family room, hardly any food in the house. I was really upset but I held it together and just kept going. I look at the boy and he's just really upest. He says I don't like mom's friend, that really hurt because he's just miserable. After we had dinner at the couples house where I've been staying and got cleaned up we crawl into bed to watch a little tv. He starts crying out of the blue, and says " Mom's friend is going to be with her the whole time". I'm trying my best not to just break down, can't say I didn't cry but at least I wasn't hysterical. I just kept telling him that no matter what I loved him. No matter where they ended up I was always going to love him and he was the most important thing in my life. He just put his arm around me and said I love you. No matter how much my heart is breaking with my wife leaving I have to say that having my son's love is the greatest gift God could ever give me.