Trip and other stuff

Well Just got back from my trip to Albuquerque New Mexico...It was nice seeing my aunt and two cousins I haven't seen them for 2 years I believe, It was funny when one of my cousins first saw me they were like "Wheres Cody?" lol because the last time they saw me I was shoter 80 pounds heavier and had straight short hair. I kinda got pretty down while we were there because of whats going on in my life I wanted to just get away from "my life" have a good time stuff like that but, I just didnt really. I had to watch my cousins almost all of the time I just felt like yeah I sound selfish right now but I just felt like I was being used just as a babysitter so everyone else would have a good time....I know thats not the thing but I cant help it really...I tried to have a good time and I did enjoy hanging out with them but not watching them all the time really =/. My dad upset me because I needed someone to talk to, couldnt talk to my mom because she has enough going on and my aunt was helping her with that, but my dad was to worried about talking to shantel the whole time either texting her or talking to her on the phone. and when he got done he went to bed =/ Im sick of that....I felt like I had no one. My eye surgery is the 23rd of this month and Im excited and nervous and scared ick I just want it to go well and when I get the prosthetic eye I want everything to be good is that to much to ask? I feel like I have no good luck anymore really and Im afraid this will add onto it like that the prosthetic eye wont look right or move then ill have to deal with people staring and stuff all the time =/. Well when we got home today my dad and I went to wal mart and I was trying to talk to him but he was to into texting shantel....so I just quit with that =/....anyways I better go byee