Triggers

Oh my. Im really anxious. My mind is going back to a few years ago. When my dad had cancer and lost his job and my ex bf and i broke up. Not a good time. Luckily he doesn't have cancer anymore and has a job. So good,right? I have been thinking about my ex a lot lately. Its very intrusive. Something triggered it the other day. He was a jerk to me, and i put up with his abuse for a long time. Im glad I dont have to see him again but I'm kinda scared I'll run into him. I dont think i will because I believe God is protecting me. but if i did see him I know I would avoid him. Like the plague. I wish i could talk to a counselor about it maybe my life coach but I am not sure exactly what id say. I just need coping mechs for when i think about him. And to finally heal. because i dont think i can forget. But i can heal and I think the most damaging effects was the way I see myself. And literally psychological and emotional effects.