I got triggered again. This time by my psychiatrist. I called him today and I told him that I will see him next time and he said if I found the psychologist to be a good match for me then I will decide if I see him next week or not. I am not sure why he did that maybe to give me the choice and maybe because I told him that I wanted to take a second opinon for the therapy. Also I was kind of stressed as the day went by. I am not sure what to do to feel better. I am feeling a little out of breath and my voice is getting weary. I am really afraid. I just did some vizualization and I am feeling better. I feel a little discouraged though.