Trigger Warning: Sexual Abuse

I am not a Very Trusting Person of People. I wish I could have had a Healthier & Happier Childhood. Mine was one of going to school & being Normal there all the Time. I loved to learn New things that Children should learn, Making friends, Play Kickball or Monkey in the Middle, Swinging on the swing, swinging on Monkey Bars etc.But my home life had alittle Part about being a Child but My Life Change when I was 10 & My dad was Never around. Bad thing about it I don't have a Memory about this situation but I know it Happened. Our Male Friend of the Family came over I don't know how Long that He had been there. He said something to My Mom about having to go get something from His House & He asked My Mom if I could Go.I respected this Person & Trusted Him. We got to His Place & He pointed Me to His Bedroom. I went into the Room then He said to take My Clothes Off & I did. I was so Scared & I couldn 't move. He puts Me on the Bed, He gets on top of Me, He started touching Me  were He Should Not ( My Chest, Down low etc. ) He stick two fingers inside of Me then when he know that He can do what He intended He stuck He Penis inside of Me. I was crying so Bad. He told Me that Everything is going to be o.k. ( This is sick ) while He was doing this I was feeling aroused & excited. I don't recall when We went to My Mom's Or what I said or done when I was back around My Mom.
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