Triggers

I had a breakthrough last night.  I think I am going to have to go for some therapy when I get back.  Missy had said something about triggers and I think that one of them is my mom.  God, how long have I told my husband that I have always thought there was a hole in my heart and something was wrong but it is just that I cannot do anything right according to her.  It's crazy.  I am 60 years old she is 86 and she treats me like I am a 12 year old.  Last night her garage door would not open.  She gets out there and sweeps the bugs off of the beam and disconnects the wire.  I was talking to my husband about it and she was just talking and talking.  I told her I could not hear Mike and then later she is pouting about the way I talked to her.  This is such a freaking pattern with her!  I was going to go rent a room for the rest of the week, but I am going to rent a car.  I have to be the adult here and not let her get to me.