Triggers

Despite working constantly to heal myselfof my past hurts sometimes I am triggered.When this happens I cry and I rage. Somethingmy husband did triggered me--I cannot tell if heis telling the truth or not. I struggled to stand upfor myself and demand that I be respected in myown home. I did not talk to him for two days I wasso angry. During that time I read my books on healingemotional pain and realized that the present situationhad triggered past hurt. My mother was barely availableto me because of her own mental illness and overwork,my dad was not available to me because of overwork andwas often cranky, overbearing and imtimidating. Things gotworst as I got older I remember being left alone with mysister for long periods of time as they worked to try to survive. This hurt me so much, I struggled to make sense of the world,basically alone and without support. My dad was terrified somethingwould happen to his girls so he was very overpretecting and freakedout with whatever I wanted to do. It helps to write this down and getit off my chest......