Trembling
Hello..
I am writting because I am trembling.. It's been 28 days since I've last talked to him.. I havent' seen him much these days, I've been in practical classes.
People..I miss him. I wonder how he has been doing. He doesn't care, we live in the same city and made no effort in talking to me. We used to talk a lot about the future, and the fact I'm making practical classes makes me miss him even more. We were supposed to get old together, to work together, endure the exams, everything. I had this bad phase, I think I was depressive (I'm slowly getting back to myself) and I know I was hard to take sometimes.. I was always crying and he couldn't understand me and I felt him leaving slowly and that just made me worse...Ifelt unwanted and ended up showing him my cold side.
I wasn't perfect in our relationship, but the fact tht he would break up with me at the smallest fight, just made me feel insecure (he broke up like 4 times) and then i would go after him and we would get back together. this last time he told me to get back after i made him a surprise and 2 days later he called it off again. He doesn't want me. he says he loves me but we destabilize each other. so he doesn't want me. he told me that 3 times last time we went out.
How can he loe me and end things so easily? I am not worth to fight for?
I am writting because I am trembling.. It's been 28 days since I've last talked to him.. I havent' seen him much these days, I've been in practical classes.
People..I miss him. I wonder how he has been doing. He doesn't care, we live in the same city and made no effort in talking to me. We used to talk a lot about the future, and the fact I'm making practical classes makes me miss him even more. We were supposed to get old together, to work together, endure the exams, everything. I had this bad phase, I think I was depressive (I'm slowly getting back to myself) and I know I was hard to take sometimes.. I was always crying and he couldn't understand me and I felt him leaving slowly and that just made me worse...Ifelt unwanted and ended up showing him my cold side.
I wasn't perfect in our relationship, but the fact tht he would break up with me at the smallest fight, just made me feel insecure (he broke up like 4 times) and then i would go after him and we would get back together. this last time he told me to get back after i made him a surprise and 2 days later he called it off again. He doesn't want me. he says he loves me but we destabilize each other. so he doesn't want me. he told me that 3 times last time we went out.
How can he loe me and end things so easily? I am not worth to fight for?
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Sibly, I am so sorry for your pain. I know how you feel, I am there, too. Ever since my breakup I have pain in my chest, and rapid heartbeat due to all the anxiety. The physical symptoms are real. Just remember: you can\'t change people. Set him free. Let him go. \"If you love something, set it free.\" This is the truth, whether we like it or not. Now is the time for you to focus on yourself, and on being the best Sibly you can be by loving yourself. If you feel depressed, please see a doctor. Share your feelings with friend who care for you, and perhaps a therapist. I, too, have struggled with how they can just walk away so easily. It\'s heartbreaking. But it\'s their truth. So we must accept it and move forward however we can.
I am thinking of you and hope your pain eases. Please keep trying. You are worth it. Love yourself, one second at a time...
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Thank you penseuse :) it\'s just a melancholic feeling lately, I don\'t know if it\'s the next break-up stage, I\'ve never had one before lol.. I just miss him but I\'m too tired of being rejected to do something about it. my fight is over. I won\'t make him stay or show him that we do fit together and it\'s just a patience thing.. no. I\'m over that.
I\'ve done it a thousand times and it was like I needed to prove to him that I wouldn\'t mess up his world, and make him comfortable.. I can\'t anymore. I long for him but I\'m just tired of the no \'s.
I know I\'ll find someone that puts as much as I do. but right now I\'m still in love with someone that has chosen to give me up after all the times he said he would always take care of me.
when he asked me to be his gf, I\'ve asked him why and told him my life and emotions weren\'t easy.. I\'ve some family problems. he said he understood. and at the 1st time I crumble because of this, instead of supporting me.. he left.