tree sign trigger

I spent about 50 dollars for fence/topsoil/no dog urine sign foa  tree dying outside building where I live----only to have a BULLY living in the same building have his dog urinate on sign, and even slide the sign under my apt door.

   Wow, did such a thing trigger all kind of past abuse in me----cause as far as I'm concerned that was a major insult, and major bullying, for him to go  out his way to slide the sign under my door.

    He even confronted me, with him having no shame----which lead idiot me to start cursing him out.   Next day, though not till afternoon, for me to be ashamed of my cursing, as well as feeling messed up enough to call local mental health organization, though to find out there is a many months waiting list to see a psychiatrist.

     Me pacing and pacing tonight, all wound up----cause at age 67 I shouldn't have to put up with the same bullying I put up with when I had to quit high school.

      Yesterday, a few hours after my mini-nervous break-down I wrote to the local paper about the tree---I hope the letter isn't printed, cause it could only make more trouble for me.