Trapped!?!

I feel so trapped/caged... like so much is hopeless... I don't understand... I may not have the best of incomes or most steady but $1730+ a month (most months) and i have nothing to show for it... I finished school with high hopes and now I feel stagnant. I have been sitting here for 2 weeks and haven't gotten much done business wise so I ask for help... help that comes with excuses lies disappointment after many more disappointments...  I'm tired... I'm tired of asking tired of needing to ask... I ultimately feel like I just need to run... Does it make sense that if I dont see the immediate need I don't feel compelled to help... I help so much that I cant even help myself and when I ask for help I don't get it or am beyond frustrated/feelin hopeless that it no longer matters... This is an endless cycle called my life... and I want to break these chains break free... be able to stand on my own without askin without rejection without disappointment... I have a cpl choices and they all have repercussions... ugh... I just want to be free and get back on my own two feet... not dependent Just ME!