Transplant

My brother Greg went into the hospital over the holidays for liver failure due to his hep-c. He was so weak he could not even feed himself and his kidneys were beginning to fail.If he did not have a liver transplant soon he was not going to make it much longer. On New Years Eve my brother received a liver that was a match and they performed the surgery on New Years morning. He is recovering and not showing any signs of rejection and may be able to go home in a few days.Sorry I have not kept up with my journal during this season but I was not really in the moment and have not been for a while.I have been fighting depression by withdrawing from everything but work. I did not spend any time with family or friends this holiday season. I have been working on getting some sort of stability into my life in order to be there for others in the future and as much as I can now. Only by the grace of God have I been able to achieve any of my goals. I am overwhelmed with what to do next so I have decided to do nothing and tomorrow I will take a walk on the beach and just kick it and try and write some more music and finish some lyrics to a song I have been working on.The men’s group I have been working with has let me slip through the cracks of their lives. I do not need much but a reply once in a while to my inquiries about my music. I think maybe I have over stepped my bounds or asked a question they are no comfortable with or feel they are not qualified to answer. Maybe they just don’t like my material and do not know how to tell me. In any case the void it creates is only growing larger each day I do not receive a response to my query. So I have decided to take a break from all and go on a retreat for an inner journey to relax and meditate on God and His plan for my life. The place where I live now is incredibly beautiful and quiet. I need and will take full advantage of this gift God has given me to reflect on Him and be in the moments I have left here in this place before it all falls apart into the next place God has for me to be……PS if interested I can put an mp3 of this song "More Than I" on my My Space page for a short time to listen to, any input good or bad would be appreciated...