Transfer tomorrow
Well tomorrow is the day... I have decided to name this embie lucky, because it is our lucky last and they say third time lucky lol!
I am hoping this will work, but at the same time I have managed to stay fairly grounded as I know that the chances are stacked against us.
I am also seeing a new psychologists, I finally found someone who is actually decent at her job. She is only a young woman and I don't even think she has children, but she has been more sympathetic toward my situation than many people I call friends! Also she is great in giving me information and tasks to do at home in order to help me get through each day. We will soon begin to work on my miscarriage and the fact that I may never fall pregnant, but she felt it was better to let this cycle pass and see what fate has in store as the outcome of this last FET will obviously determine what we will need to work on.
Otherwise, I am o.k. I feel happier than I have in a while and though I am not hopeful (this is the first time I haven't turn to prayer to whatever deity I am attempting to convince myself is hearing my pleas) I am content with the fact that even If I decide that this is it and don't go for another cycle (which I think is what will happen) at least I know that I tried my hardest, and if nothing else, that I was a mommy for those wonderful and magical 12wks...
I am hoping this will work, but at the same time I have managed to stay fairly grounded as I know that the chances are stacked against us.
I am also seeing a new psychologists, I finally found someone who is actually decent at her job. She is only a young woman and I don't even think she has children, but she has been more sympathetic toward my situation than many people I call friends! Also she is great in giving me information and tasks to do at home in order to help me get through each day. We will soon begin to work on my miscarriage and the fact that I may never fall pregnant, but she felt it was better to let this cycle pass and see what fate has in store as the outcome of this last FET will obviously determine what we will need to work on.
Otherwise, I am o.k. I feel happier than I have in a while and though I am not hopeful (this is the first time I haven't turn to prayer to whatever deity I am attempting to convince myself is hearing my pleas) I am content with the fact that even If I decide that this is it and don't go for another cycle (which I think is what will happen) at least I know that I tried my hardest, and if nothing else, that I was a mommy for those wonderful and magical 12wks...
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Well I hope this one lives up to its name!! I will be praying for you and hope things go well. I was in the debate of this being my last cycle too, but I don\'t know now if I am ready to give up. Only time will tell. And you will hold those 12 weeks in your heart forever, I still every once and a while look back at my 10 weeks and the few pics that I have of that baby...I kick myself all the time for not telling them I wanted pics of my baby at the last u/s when they said we lost the heartbeat. But I have faith that God still has another child in store for me.... I am glad you found someone to talk to, I struggle with finding someone to talk to also, so I come on here. I wish you well and let us know how your transfer goes and the 2ww after. Best wishes and sticky baby dust sent your way! HUGS!!!
I will be praying for you and your husband that this will be your lucky one!
Sending SOOOO many psotive vibes your way and tons of sticky babydust!!!! Come on Lucky! Snuggle in!!!!
I really really hope this is you lucky 3rd!!!! Positive thoughts and energy your way:)) I am glad you feel at peace with all that is happening....I hope I can find that too one day. Wishing you all the luck in the world and a prayer for that little embie to stick, stick, stick!!!!