Transfer tomorrow
Well tomorrow is the day... I have decided to name this embie lucky, because it is our lucky last and they say third time lucky lol!
I am hoping this will work, but at the same time I have managed to stay fairly grounded as I know that the chances are stacked against us.
I am also seeing a new psychologists, I finally found someone who is actually decent at her job. She is only a young woman and I don't even think she has children, but she has been more sympathetic toward my situation than many people I call friends! Also she is great in giving me information and tasks to do at home in order to help me get through each day. We will soon begin to work on my miscarriage and the fact that I may never fall pregnant, but she felt it was better to let this cycle pass and see what fate has in store as the outcome of this last FET will obviously determine what we will need to work on.
Otherwise, I am o.k. I feel happier than I have in a while and though I am not hopeful (this is the first time I haven't turn to prayer to whatever deity I am attempting to convince myself is hearing my pleas) I am content with the fact that even If I decide that this is it and don't go for another cycle (which I think is what will happen) at least I know that I tried my hardest, and if nothing else, that I was a mommy for those wonderful and magical 12wks...
I am hoping this will work, but at the same time I have managed to stay fairly grounded as I know that the chances are stacked against us.
I am also seeing a new psychologists, I finally found someone who is actually decent at her job. She is only a young woman and I don't even think she has children, but she has been more sympathetic toward my situation than many people I call friends! Also she is great in giving me information and tasks to do at home in order to help me get through each day. We will soon begin to work on my miscarriage and the fact that I may never fall pregnant, but she felt it was better to let this cycle pass and see what fate has in store as the outcome of this last FET will obviously determine what we will need to work on.
Otherwise, I am o.k. I feel happier than I have in a while and though I am not hopeful (this is the first time I haven't turn to prayer to whatever deity I am attempting to convince myself is hearing my pleas) I am content with the fact that even If I decide that this is it and don't go for another cycle (which I think is what will happen) at least I know that I tried my hardest, and if nothing else, that I was a mommy for those wonderful and magical 12wks...
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