Transfer didn't go quite as planned
So my little embie is in, none of embies were good enough to freeze so I'm a little bummed out about it. Really bummed out about it actually. I remember once reading a journal entry of one of our IF sisters not being able to freeze any eggs and I felt so bad for her, now that woman is me and I feel so bad for me.
To top it all off, the transfer didn't go as smoothly as I thought it would. The embie returned back into the tube during transfer and so they had to transfer twice. I heard somewhere that's bad, though my FS didn't seem too concerned.
And the cherry on top of that? Well, I found out I was supposed to be taking my progesterone pressaries 4 days ago after egg collection. I thought I had to start it on the day of egg transfer. My FS clarified and told me not to worry, that a lot of women get pregnant without the pressaries and it's a small component of the entire cycle but to me it's still a component I missed and I fucked up.
A part of me feels like there's no point hoping now, it's started out all wrong and I've ruined everything. It's taking everything in me to remember that this fight is still not over, my little embie could still stick and this could be the one. But it's taking a lot of out me to think positive. Please Lord, please please please I'm begging you, let this be the one. Please let this be the one.
To top it all off, the transfer didn't go as smoothly as I thought it would. The embie returned back into the tube during transfer and so they had to transfer twice. I heard somewhere that's bad, though my FS didn't seem too concerned.
And the cherry on top of that? Well, I found out I was supposed to be taking my progesterone pressaries 4 days ago after egg collection. I thought I had to start it on the day of egg transfer. My FS clarified and told me not to worry, that a lot of women get pregnant without the pressaries and it's a small component of the entire cycle but to me it's still a component I missed and I fucked up.
A part of me feels like there's no point hoping now, it's started out all wrong and I've ruined everything. It's taking everything in me to remember that this fight is still not over, my little embie could still stick and this could be the one. But it's taking a lot of out me to think positive. Please Lord, please please please I'm begging you, let this be the one. Please let this be the one.
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Praying with you - your baby is on the way!
Stay positive! If your doctor isn\'t worried, you shouldn\'t be either. I\'m sorry none made it to freeze, that sucks :(
I am sending you lots of prayers and comfort. this is so hard....you\'re not a doctor and still have to understand the million of different things you need to do during this process. I agree that if your doctor isn\'t too worried, then you shouldn\'t be either - easier said than done. DON\'T GOOGLE. please don\'t....it\'ll detroy you. drink a lot of water, rest and let\'s see what happens. so much of this is science, but a lot of it is faith and fate. stay calm, ok?
I\'m really sorry that any didn\'t make it to the freezer. I\'m praying for you and I hope that this one sticks! Stay positive! Take deep breaths.
Thinking of you and sending a ton of luck!! Just because a few things didn\'t go to plan does not mean you have the hang up the towel! Hang in there friend!
Sorry you\'re feeling like there\'s no hope. That\'s ok, because all of us will hope for you. Thinking of you hun and hoping this is your miracle.
How frustrating! But remember to be gentle on yourself. You\'re trying to remember and coordinate what feels like a bazillion things. I\'m praying that your little embie sticks and you get to see your miracle :)