Tragic fall

I just wish i could be happy for longer then a few weeks, I wish i could take my own advice and not take it out on myself, it wasn't my fault, but i feel like it was, even now i am a mess, it wasn't love, it wasn't lust, it wasn't longing it was a fall, an endless fall into the pit of despair, a it that is so hard to climb out of, it was a fall, a tragic fall with a tragic end, it ended with a crash, and i laid shattered on the floor, it was a fall, a tragic fall with a bitter end.