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heartspain
Mood:  Horrible

Tough week....

I'm fighting and all I can do, trying to find the importance in myself that I am not the one missing out on the marriage but my STBXW, she did not want me, her selfish decision to leave....yet I think about her all the time.
Tough week, sale of my home completed yesterday, celebrating a milestone birthday today with out her, going to first divorce collaborative meeting in 2 days...
what doesn't kill you makes you stronger....right????
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Atpeacemary
Atpeacemary

All I can say is hugs, my friend. Yes, it is hard. As time passes, it will and does get easier. All we can do is be gentle with ourselves. Cry and let those feelings come. Do not bottle them up. Happy Birthday We are here for you
thiscantbe
thiscantbe

Are you thinking about how she has treated you lately or how you would have liked her to treat you.
I also am heartbroken, but the man I miss is not the man that he is today.
Like you said, she is selfish, she left, she doesn\'t want to work on your marriage. Sometimes (most of the time) we miss who they once were, ... But not who they are today.
Thoughts & prayers. We will all get through this heartache with time. You are never alone. :) TCB
yougospam
yougospam

Happy birthday!!! Sorry it\'s a painful one, try and think that next year at this time, you will be feeling better, I know you don\'t believe that (I didn\'t either) but you will. We do become stronger and we become better people because of our pain. While we continue to heal, they continue to flounder through life making messes and destroying other people as they go. We are not like them, nor do we want to be like them. We do love and miss the memory of them, but as time heals, we learn we no longer miss the person they became.

Sorry for your pain, there is nothing like it but it does get better. Take life one day at a time and try and not think about her as much as possible. Hugs and prayers!!!