Tough day

It's been a hard day.  Didn't make money at work(I'm in sales).  That's not good.  Went shopping for my redecorating project.  Felt good.  Looked at the bill from shopping.  Not good.  Told the decorator that I needed to scale back big time, even though it made me feel good for a second.  Felt good.
 
Got home, missed DH, called Dad.  Felt like throwing myself off a roof, then God caught me and brought me back.  Now, I'm sitting here typing this thing and trying to figure out how to feel good every day, or some days, or any day. Truth is, I'll take any second of the day where I feel good.   Hope it's possible or next year I've got to make some major changes to my life.
 
Right now, I'm gonna set a new goal.  Then I'm going to sit down and write a story and post to my fanfiction group.  I've gotta write a story where somebody feels better than me.