Torturous the system

Well here i am in limbo waiting for a judgement in a week or two. Just felt i should express just how torturous it has been being forced to court on several occasions over time since last year. Being made to be in the same building and room as the abuser. I have been strong but i feel a great sense of wrong on those who have blindly and unsypathetically facilitated this. The going over traumatic violent events and dragging up of past has not been of help to me or my child. I am caring for my grangmother and family at the time of my grandfathers death funneral not till wed. My grandmother has altzhiemer's/demetia. staying with us temporarily. I continue to keep to my mantra not to allow this cruel , amoral individual from my past to ruin my present. I continue to fight against my nature but i have been forced to. Its tough at times you wonder what kind of a modern western country allows this treatment of abused women and there children. I can only hope that in time they realise that it has to stop. I have done my best and done what is right, and that is all i can do.