Too Much Trazadone
Last night I took my full dose of Trazadone, and I slept all day. Like, literally all day. I went to sleep at midnight and woke up at 5pm. I could have slept longer, too, but I made myself get up so I could go to bed at a good time. I missed work today because when I woke up at noon I felt so dizzy I could barely walk. Geo convinced me to stay home, and I lay back down and slept until 5. I did wake up at 10am and took my morning pills and stuff, so at least I know I'm on track with that. When I had a job and this happened, they threatened to send me home from work because it looked like I was sleeping on the job. There was a time when I did nap during my lunch break on a couch, but that was it. I just get so tired all the time when I take it, and it didn't even put me to sleep last night! I took it at 9:30 and I ended up having to take klonopin at 11:30 since I felt like I had woken up again. When I first take it, I feel like I could fall asleep at any time, but as time goes on I wake back up. By the time 11:30 came around I was fully awake again. Tonight I'm going to take less and see what that does. I should be able to go to work tomorrow.
I need to start going to work more often. I know that I'm making a bad impression on my bosses by missing time. Maybe it's just not the time for me to try and get a job and I need to wait a bit more. I hope not, but I don't know if I'm ready for a job now. I thought I was before when I did the application, but with missing 2 days of work it doesn't seem like I should be applying for a job right now. It's just that I don't know when the right time will be. I don't know... I want to be working and productive and earning money, but I need to be reliable as well. I know today was just because of the trazadone, but I need to be able to deal with bumps like that when I'm really working. I also need to be able to get through the hard times like January and February when I'm really depressed. I don't know if I can apply for FMLA, but I don't want to look bad.
I didn't do any exercise today, either. I was supposed to walk to the clinic and back, but since I didn't go to work I didn't even do that. I didn't leave the apartment again. I need to take out the trash and clean the litter box, but I haven't done that in a couple days. I know Angela isn't happy about the state of her litter box, but at least she's still using it. I think after I'm done with this journal I will go and take out the trash and stuff. I just haven't been thinking about it when I'm properly dressed. It's not a big deal for me to just throw on some decent clothes and take it out, but I just want to be lazy. I just haven't been feeling good. I'm not sick, but that lag from the trazadone is still around. I drank a Mt. Dew today and that didn't even help. It was too late to have coffee, but I had a soda.
Mood today was okay... I wasn't really awake long enough to establish a mood for the day. I've only been up for 4 hours. Geo and I had a good time watching TV, but that's about it. He went to nap when I woke up. I woke him for dinner, we ate and watched our TV and then I came to the room to do my journal. It's all part of my routine. I need to do my journal on a nightly basis, even if it is a short one since I don't feel good if I don't. I also like being in bed by 9:30 or 10. It takes me about a half hour to do my journal, and more time to take care of reading other people's journals and stuff, so I'm on the computer for a couple hours every night. I'm not looking forward to tomorrow, since the program we watch is going to be 3 hours instead of 2 and I don't know if I can get everything done in time. I'm very picky about things interrupting my routine.
Food today was good... I was in my calories and everything. Mostly because I slept all day. I woke up at 10am and had some rice, and then at 5 I had some deli meat and chocolate milk, and then around 7 I had dinner which was a chicken breast with pasta salad. I'm not looking forward to my bagel tomorrow morning since my tooth still hurts and it's hard to open my jaw wide enough for the mini bagel. I eat half at a time, so it's not even that big. But I have to eat them or else they are going to go bad, plus I don't have any other food for breakfast. We have a bunch of food for dinner, but we don't have a lot of lunch and breakfast foods since Geo eats them pretty fast. Well, we do have a lot of spaghetti, but I don't have time in the morning to cook that. I just have to go with my bagels and peanut butter.
I need to start going to work more often. I know that I'm making a bad impression on my bosses by missing time. Maybe it's just not the time for me to try and get a job and I need to wait a bit more. I hope not, but I don't know if I'm ready for a job now. I thought I was before when I did the application, but with missing 2 days of work it doesn't seem like I should be applying for a job right now. It's just that I don't know when the right time will be. I don't know... I want to be working and productive and earning money, but I need to be reliable as well. I know today was just because of the trazadone, but I need to be able to deal with bumps like that when I'm really working. I also need to be able to get through the hard times like January and February when I'm really depressed. I don't know if I can apply for FMLA, but I don't want to look bad.
I didn't do any exercise today, either. I was supposed to walk to the clinic and back, but since I didn't go to work I didn't even do that. I didn't leave the apartment again. I need to take out the trash and clean the litter box, but I haven't done that in a couple days. I know Angela isn't happy about the state of her litter box, but at least she's still using it. I think after I'm done with this journal I will go and take out the trash and stuff. I just haven't been thinking about it when I'm properly dressed. It's not a big deal for me to just throw on some decent clothes and take it out, but I just want to be lazy. I just haven't been feeling good. I'm not sick, but that lag from the trazadone is still around. I drank a Mt. Dew today and that didn't even help. It was too late to have coffee, but I had a soda.
Mood today was okay... I wasn't really awake long enough to establish a mood for the day. I've only been up for 4 hours. Geo and I had a good time watching TV, but that's about it. He went to nap when I woke up. I woke him for dinner, we ate and watched our TV and then I came to the room to do my journal. It's all part of my routine. I need to do my journal on a nightly basis, even if it is a short one since I don't feel good if I don't. I also like being in bed by 9:30 or 10. It takes me about a half hour to do my journal, and more time to take care of reading other people's journals and stuff, so I'm on the computer for a couple hours every night. I'm not looking forward to tomorrow, since the program we watch is going to be 3 hours instead of 2 and I don't know if I can get everything done in time. I'm very picky about things interrupting my routine.
Food today was good... I was in my calories and everything. Mostly because I slept all day. I woke up at 10am and had some rice, and then at 5 I had some deli meat and chocolate milk, and then around 7 I had dinner which was a chicken breast with pasta salad. I'm not looking forward to my bagel tomorrow morning since my tooth still hurts and it's hard to open my jaw wide enough for the mini bagel. I eat half at a time, so it's not even that big. But I have to eat them or else they are going to go bad, plus I don't have any other food for breakfast. We have a bunch of food for dinner, but we don't have a lot of lunch and breakfast foods since Geo eats them pretty fast. Well, we do have a lot of spaghetti, but I don't have time in the morning to cook that. I just have to go with my bagels and peanut butter.
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