Too much time to think

For the last few days I have been on my own at work. The absence of another person has once again been brut back to me. My mind has bewand define in all sorts of directions. I find myself dwelling on the past again and trying to remember little details. Our last day together, whawere spoke about. The use answers seem to be hazyOrr if there not hazy I find myself doubting if they happens or not. 
The days are long and the nights have gone back to being terribly restless. Tired all day again and am considering going back to the sleeping tablets for a couple of nights a ek to help me get a decent night sleep.
Since debs funeral in December I have had one visitor from family. 
Feeling down at the moment but still keeping in there. Daughter still keeps me smiling and I see more of her mother in her every day.